A Hostile Race -Dream Entry-

I haven't dreamed in what feels like months. But last night, while trying to figure out how to clean my new hemp ropes, I gave up, dry sticky and stinky hemp and laundry soap drying on my hands as I sat on the black leather couch, unmoving. I was trying to figure what reason I had to do this, work, right, (I'm a shibari artist, screenwriter, photographer), work for money, money to live and buy impulsive/unnecessary things, live so I don't disappoint other people that I gave up on living because I would be selfish if I just chose to die. Anyway, if I was going to mope around and think about death, I should do it when I'm alone somewhere, not when I'm at someone else's house. So I had to cut the fantasy short and not act like a lame douche. What triggered the dream to be intense enough for me to remember was the emotion I had before I fell asleep.

A dentist was cleaning my teeth with a ball-point pen. Everytime he scraped at my teeth, the ink would come on and he would have to wipe it away with that dentist napkin.

A mexican cathedral. I've gone up to the top a few times, where the bells would usually be at but there were no bells, just a lot of gargoyles everywhere. The final time I've gone up there, I felt the entities of the other realms move about, hostile, irritated and passively-violent until a breaking point (a reflection of myself). I was racing against time and I had to get into the church before the entire outside fills with these beings that are even more physical and violent. I moved gargoyles that surrounded an area shaped into a box, it was suppose to lead into the church by stairs. I stepped into that "box" but the enity, a young boy that was that "box" area didn't let me in. so I was stuck, racing against time and trying to convince this entity to let me in. He said he wasn't allowed to let anything in, meaning, any of the bad guys out here. But whoever gave him those orders was too vauge and it didn't allow access of ANYONE and ANYTHING. I felt like I could have twisted things and made it work. I was running out of time. I ran off the church building top.