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I was here a moment ago...

Stepping out from the darkness of the bathroom, passed the body length mirror into the next light. I'm not sure if I am the person I was a moment ago. Yes, I remember you. Can you prove to me that you and I are the same person we were a moment ago? Can you prove that we didn't die a moment before and came back for another try? Can you prove we did die?

I think I was here a moment ago...

I don't feel very alive again. Must be because I haven't slept yet, it's almost 5AM now, I've been going to sleep at 10PM now like a good human. This switch is bringing back bad habits. I shouldn't have smoked so late...

Obsession with various metal bands gave me the time to read lyrics and stare for long moments at the photos of these bands.

I also spent a few hours to find out what it is in my "trigger" music makes IT trigger, it's screaming and growling, demonic sounds, and a lot of drums. Feed me.

Pinhole Camera

Tommy put the pinhole camera together for me because I suck at gluing things. I have thirty-six shots for this expired film roll.

Shibari with Eowyn-Rose

I've never met anyone like her, she is amazing!

Shibari with Melissa

Melissa is very patient and always looks good!

A Demon In My Stomach

I... Once again, awoke at 10AM, same as yesterday, thinking it was 3PM. I had heartburn last night because of the fried take-out food. This morning I had the left overs of the take-out food, lunch was the same, both times giving me heartburn. Dinner was cereal and enjoyable.

Living here, I am getting more exercise vs no exercise to five minutes of stretching at all back at home. Walking two stories upstairs to get into the studio apartment burns my legs, constant moving around to do photography work makes me sweat, I walk at least two blocks a day. I've only fallen into depression twice and only for a few hours, I've been here for seven days, today is the eighth.

Kaut has a blog now: http://zeinsomniac.blogspot.com/


My photo work of the day:

My first pervert shot, thanks Tommy.

Insomnia of the Tuna.

Well, I did it again. I woke up at 10AM thinking that it was sometime passed 3PM. Insomnia kicked in yesterday night and was driving me to madness! It must have been that damn tuna Tommy wanted me to try so badly. Insomnia Tuna. Tuna Insomnia. Insomnia of the Tuna. Yeah, that's what I'm going to call this entry.

I did it again... I poured boiling hot water out of the pot all over my hand again. I scrubbed and bleached the crap out of Tommy's bathtub without a mask or gloves because I'm bad-ass like that. And while it sparkled white, the skin on my hand felt like it was going to slug off.

I did these yesterday, but it doesn't fit into my 365 days self portrait project, so I'll just toss them here. I did

no editing! Hah!