Repetition

Lately I've just been calculating costs and doing repetitiveness searching on college courses in different parts of the planet. Reading and memorizing what is need to be taken before I can take the courses I want. Calculating costs (how much it'll throw me in debt and for how long), searching room for rents and apartments costs, distance and safety.

I would love to go through this. I would love to make dead people look good. I'm only worried about nightmares, and if I would even be able to get a job in this field when I'm done. Nightmares I can deal with, let them at me if that will save me from debt. My negativity... I wonder when I'll turn myself around, or if I'll ever even want to.