Burning Bridges

I'm leaving in ten days to Chicago. I've never met Lionel before, and we don't know each other personally, the conversations we had were always only occult-related because we were both very obsessed a couple years ago. I haven't spoken to him in years, and yes, I just out of the blue asked him if I can spend a week over at his house. I've never spoken to him over the phone, so we are very much strangers, but I'm taking the risk of spending a week over his place because I need to get out. I need some place new, I need a rush, and some adventures. I haven't done anything exciting that has got my blood pumping for over four years.

I like that he is spontaneous, which is what I need right now.

I have to get through this, I want to get through this. I've been avoiding people because I don't want to deal with them. They hardly ever listen and they are so full of themselves. But I've destroyed my social skills from avoiding to meet new people. I want to fix it. I have to fix it.

Right now, I keep questioning if the trip would even be worth it. I know that's a horrible thing to think about. I've already bought the tickets so I can't talk myself out of it... But I can always get a refund. Which I don't want to do because that just defeats the purpose of buying the tickets in the first place. Asking myself if it would be worth it would be expecting something out of nothing!

I have to burn bridges, no turning back now.

San Jose, CA

to Emeryville, CA

Sunday, October 16

4:10AM

Emeryville, CA

to Chicago, IL

Tuesday, October 18

2:50PM

Chicago, IL

to Emeryville, CA

Tuesday, October 25

2:00PM

Emeryville, CA

to San Jose, CA

Thursday, October 27

6:45PM