These last few weeks consists of no meditation, no hobbies of interest, no normal job, no social life, no studies, no school, I am simply doing nothing for once in my life and for the first time I feel like a human being living in an over-crowded toxic city.
I don't like a lot of things. I don't like a lot of people. But I can love everyone and everything even if I fasinate for hours about torturing them. I know no one will believe that I have universal love because I always seem so spiteful. I don't like the physical elements of this place, so after this rant, I will continue with my eyes closed even if it means walking around in public with eyes closed. Screw what people think, I've killed off that part of my ego sometime last year so I have no shame.
For Valentine's Day, I want a box of strawberries and organic coffee.
I've been thinking of what my last words would be, and now I finally know what I want to say: "This is happiest moment of my life".
I never want to hear those words because I'll know whats going on...but when I do I'll try to be happy for you...though I will die on the inside...
ReplyDeleteI believe in your love Julie...the love of what the human race could be...I share that love...
I'll get you a crate of strawberries and the cocoa tree if I could but a box and a cup should be fine...right?
I didn't do that eyes closed experiment. It's too vicious and gorey for me. Maybe after I undergo another self-hypnosis I'll be able to do it alright.
ReplyDeleteYup, a box of strawberries and real coffee would be nice. Thanks. See you Sunday.