I want a Donut, a Coffee and a Pack of Ciggarettes (Day #06)

11:50PM Lionel left for work. He looked grumpy, which he probably was because he was tired. I'm thinking of showing up at his work at 5:55AM, five minutes before he gets off, except I forgot how to get there.

2:27AM Four more hours until Lionel gets back.

3:14AM I'm not sure how much longer I can stay awake.

I dozed off sometime passed 5AM. I awoke when Lionel came back. He didn't go to sleep until 7AM. I had a medieval dream, I don't remember much from it, just silver knights going... Going somewhere.

I awoke at 11AM.
I've overcome my fear of astral projecting.
If anything happens, it is an experience and lesson to be learned.
Fear gets you into trouble, being afraid forces manifestations of your fears.
I am no longer afraid. I am pretty darn happy.

I don't know what it is, but Lionel's energy really harmonizes mine. I am grounded, I am able to live in the present time (which is more difficult done than said), I am not irratated, tired, angry, there is no sadness to be felt, even the subtle depression that always lingers with me is gone. I've also noticed that I don't wake up tired and groggy anymore. Lionel said something to me today that left me standing dumbfounded, I was not expecting that he could be so shallow. Harmony was gone and I was filled with the rage, frustration, malice and hate that I had left back at home. I said nothing for the sake of keeping whatever we had built together from not shattering and become a mess that no one wants to clean up. We calmly talked it out, which I'm not sure if either of us does that on a normal basis, typically I would be giving a full-blown rant about why he was wrong and rudely asking him how he even came to that assumption. Something... On a metaphysical level calmed me... Or us. Maybe it was because we both wanted to keep what we had together. Whatever the reason, there is something very curious about how the energies of two people work together to balance out their entire self. It is so amazing to me, that someone with a firey hatred toward humanity and the world could harmonize my energies.